My Jiu Jitsu Sucks
My Jiu Jitsu SUCKS. There I said it. That no matter how hard I try, I just can't accomplish what I'm striving for in the world of Jiu Jitsu. That I'm constantly being beat down by little guys, big guys, females, teenagers and any other living creature that wears a gi and belt. That in spite of how hard I work, I can't ever see the proverbial light at the end of the tunnel. And when I do, it's once again a freight train of beat down leaving me with my head slumped over in shame.
In all honesty, most of what I previously described is true and quite frequently my Jiu Jitsu sucks but not all of the time. However, so does everyone else to varying degrees. That even though you have a certain skill set and belt rank, there is always room for improving ones Jiu Jitsu. But maybe suck is to harsh. Maybe it's better to say My Jiu Jitsu is lacking.
Now I believe lacking in Jiu Jitsu is a good thing. Because it really does bring more opportunity for additional learning. And since Jiu Jitsu is a journey, the journey of learning should never stop. Whole-heartedly, this has been my approach from the very on-set of my journey. That I would tune out the noise of belts, tournaments and comparisons and focus solely on my journey. So with my lacking, how has my journey fared thus far? I'd say that it has fared well...all things considered
My journey is a serious of small wins. I passed guard, was able to establish good side control, had a great set-up for a kimura...etc. And even though I may still have been tapped out in the end, I still had a small win. Also, while less frequent is an occasional submission. That either by the application of good technique or just plain ole luck, I submitted my opponent. But in either occurrence, whether a small success or a submission, each of these victories further build upon my level of confidence. But here also lies the danger-zone. And that is...the ego
An ego is actually a good characteristic to have, so long as it's balanced with humility. If left unchecked though, it can control you to such a point that your success actually diminishes. This is where you start seeing yourself as better than everyone else. Or you think you know so much that you start correcting others. Or worse yet, you start believing you deserve this belt or that recognition. Simply put, no one deserves anything in Jiu Jitsu. Everything about Jiu Jitsu is rooted in being a life long student, training with humility, training hard and just plain ole time.
So the next time I acknowledge my Jiu Jitsu is lacking (our sucks), I'll rejoice. For it's not the end of the world, its actually the beginning of a new chapter. I'll rejoice in the constant opportunities for improvement and in time those other things like recognition, belt and leadership will come.
So I leave with this...My Jiu Jitsu will always suck!
Peace Love and Chokes,